God is Good Always And Forever

Fear and anxiety have been my best friend recently. I got married and for some reason I feel like I got closer to them instead of my wife. But why? Something happened today at Church and it was about how we got attacked by satan and there is a spiritual attack. Normally the idea of an enemy that I can't see attacking would scare me, but for some reason I was relieved. Because it reminded me that God is good, God is great, and God is very much real.

The fear and anxiety has been trying to show me that I have no control, but this was a reminder that those things have no control. Only God is in control of my life and he is standing in front of me shielding me from everything causing distress. So the reason I have so much peace is because I was reminded of God's goodness and that he is protecting me, and I have no reason to fear. And that peace and grace filled me with hope.

Alongside that, I had this feeling that God was shaking me by the shoulders saying "stop it, what are you doing my son" "why are you choosing to suffer?" For some reason that also reassured me that God is real and he is with me and that the life ive been living has been something I made up. That the work I do would get me out of this rut. But, no its God and only God. So I write this to tell everyone, that God is real. Don't worry, dont be afraid. Trust in God and only God.